Patience.

So, today is the last day of March. It seems the month went by so quickly, though it was a very eventful one that included many ups + downs on the emotional rollercoaster. And Spring is finally here! The weather has been real finicky in accepting the new season--warm + humid one day, cold + rainy the next. Florida can never make up her mind.

As of April 29th, I will have worked for 3 whole years here at my job. It is the longest I've ever been employed at a company + each time I think about it, I am thankful. Those times when I struggled [+ still struggle] with my career identity have been rough, but I always get put back in my place when I remember the fact that I *at least* have a job. The big perspective is sometimes hard to see when you're so busy dealing with right now. I know I do so plenty of times. I begin to think, "Why aren't I somewhere else?" + "While I am here, how can I move forward when I don't have exactly what it takes to move forward?" Then, I look back + know that I am definitely in a much better place than I was some years ago.

I know in time things will begin to work itself out. Believing in the unknown + having faith is a difficult task, but I have seen it work in other's lives + in my own. I have heard that maybe my time isn't now. That is definitely something I don't want to hear when I'm frustrated + bent on making things happen for myself. It's not easy to relax, simmer down, + just accept that bigger things will happen for each of us soon--just not now.

I have learned to get used to the long drives back + forth from home to work. The drives are usually very uneventful + dull, though I am loving the reduced stop lights on my new route since I moved. One of the things I look forward to on my drives is seeing all the colourful wildflowers growing from the grassy medians of these long + desolate roads. They've disappeared when Winter came along, but have now sprung up from the ground lining the edges of the road in red, pink, + yellow. I will need to bring my digital camera next time to show you all what I get to see on a daily basis. It's one of the things that make my drives worthwhile.